Currently Listening Chapter V By Staind Right here waiting see related

I can truely say.... that i believe in second chances.....

Currently Listening Us and Them By Shinedown Save Me see related

Everything is getting hectic now, with school, work, and planning for senior week. Hopefully it all works out in the end. I am counting on a nice needed break this weekend, maybe a nice back massage from Stevie...lol. I am lookin forward to going to church for the first time in.....lets just say a pretty long time. Of course i need my precious to be with....for support against those haters who are friends w/ my ex. I have a feeling it will go smoothly. I just hope Stevie's mom will let me sleep over....cause i dont know what i'd give to just hold her one night. Only got to experience that once and it was too long ago.

Hopefully i will again and she comes to the beach with us. I dont see how she can't be around just a couple girls. They seem to like her....I dont see how it is such a big deal. And i hope she doesn't go by the phone convo because that was only said before because the guys didn't want any girls going.....so no girls could complain about other girls who get to go. I dont know, i just really hope her and hollynn can go......cause that would be a fun time. Minus taking them back hope halfway through the week, but i'm possitive i can live with that for three or so days w/ stevie. Well i just finished a Physics lab that was total bullshit....so i think ill go to bed early for once. haha

Currently Listening The Silence in Black and White By Hawthorne Heights see related

Well yesterday was exciting.....helped Stevie review for her math test. We ended up getting in a small fight bout some stupid stuff. Through everything thats been happening....i feel i can trust her more and more which means a lot to me. I just hope she can trust me as much because i dont want to ever hurt her.

So i guess we are narrowing our choices for Senior Week down since it is only in a couple months.....def. excited!!!! No matter where we go....as long as stevie is w/ me and i am w/ my friends i know i will have a great time. Though the three story houses...w/ the pool tables...bars...and pools are pretty fricken sweet too!!! Well it only becomes reality when i get in my car w/ stevie and we hit that long stretch of highway towards the beach....can't wait.

Other fun news i guess....hmmm....i do not have practice on Friday!!! I hope Stevie can hold of her fun w/ Ashton for a little so i can spend some much needed time w/ her not worrying about anything and just having fun. I def need a break like that from all this damn school work. After that, i have to go to a lax tourny saturday morning w/ casey and his bro. Should be fun though i haven't handled my since last practice two weeks ago..haha. I think thats enough updating for now and i hope it is better then some "stupid song" that apparently doesn't have any meaning and is not a bit "from the heart"...right right...you know i still love you though. 

Currently Listening Dirty Little Secret By All American Rejects Dirty Little Secret see related

New years was definitely awesome!!! ....except my car got backed into by some dome girl, who happend to be the DD ?? Don't know whats up w/ that or y they felt they didn't have to say anything bout it. But since i didn't notice til the next day....New years eve was an overall good night. So i just got back from helpin some girl study for her midterm tomorrow in Bio. I think her name was Stevie....yea that could be right. haha. Can't believe we are at the halfway point already. One more half until graduation!!! Too bad im still confused on what i want to do as far as schooling. I was so sure about going away but now with recent things brought to my attention....i want to stay too. But for now im watchin the Orange Bowl....and it seems like a really interesting game, so i'll have to get back to this another time...oh i have homework too i think yet. Yea def. the g/f's fault...but i love her for that!